Vigilant Leighrick, Poetic Renegade
I love you like tomorrow
Longing for you to come around, but unsure its worth it
There’s this lingering mystery, but really everyday turns out to be the same.
I want you to keep me up at night, because you can’t wait to see me.
I love you like tomorrow, tho there are times you treat me like yesterday.
I see a future with you, but
I’m so worried you won’t stay…
-Leighrick
The Journey of a Gemini
I’ve been on this journey seeking the other half of me.
My eyes have grown weary & my heart weak.
My head hung low in disappointment.
To the point I’m trying to reach, each step seems as though I’m getting further in distance.
I sit in isolation, sand storms caressing my mind, blizzards comforting my heart, and the great flood drowning my soul.
Heat stroke seemed only to be the only thing comforting me.
Until he came and sat beside me.
I felt his ear to my soul…
His thoughts beating to the rhythm of my heart.
I smile because he’s found me.
The Journey of a Gemini
I’ve sought to find the other half of me.
I am his sun.
He is my moon.
I wonder if knows he’s found me in my worst storm.
That the rain just isn’t nature’s cry for help, but my own spirits.
I want him,
I want him to understand, his smile is my sunset and his eyes are my ocean.
Understand he is my place of peace,
Someone who hears my screams and yells back to comfort me.
I run my hands through the sand, his trails and tribulations.
His breaths kindred to the night waves.
He is my reach past the stars, and the sky…with him I feel no limits.
And
If I am to him Queen, He is my King..
Pour out our thoughts.
Mix our Love.
And build a barricade around our sandcastle.
This is the Journey of a Gemini.
I realize what lies beyond his eyes
&
The difference between what lies hes been told, and what lies in his heart.
As I lie in his arms
He embraces my anticipation.
This journey reflects on my rebuilding of trust.
Does he know he is the foundation?
Everyday will be Summer time, because I will be his sun shining light on his journey as well.
This is the story of a Gemini.
I’ve found the other half of me.
He knows the other half, nobody has ever known,
He is the half of me, I’m always been afraid of showing
but
Somehow through this poem, my feelings for him just flow.
Massaging his doubts..
Our fingers interlock, and we’ll begin our journey together.
The only dream I look forward to, he seems to be better than reality its self.
I wonder…
Is this journey of a Gemini only a dream, because if so fuck that…I want him inside of me.
Not only thoughts, but in feelings,
not only by touch is he healing
but he comforts me, when it feels as though I am emotionless
Incapable of affection…
I feel so Emotional that I am Emotionless
I often wonder if he’s testing me…teasing me?
Love has no boundaries, I stopped to take a break…I gave up on that shit!
I look ahead, and loves found me.
Now I wonder…should I further this journey?
Mother these problems?
Become acquainted with long lost feelings?
Curse the father of my thoughts?
Pet the idea of falling in love again?
Love hurt me before, my chambers turned ice cold
&
My rib cage turned into jail bars.
I feel myself unable to escape.
I wonder if he knows this is me?
Am I accepted?
All I ask for is my love to be respected — and if wants to
He can grab my hand, and join me.
This is the journey of a Gemini.
I am half asleep with my eyes wide open.
I cant see him, but I hear him, and I feel our love growing closer.
He yells, “Love Stinks!“
Well that love stench is me, because I’ve been traveling for to long on this damn journey.
But
What can I say?...It’s the Gemini in Me.
-Leighrick
My greatest fear is love, because the thought of you kills me.
How can someone be so involved, but idle in presence.
You fit the description, and I guess I’ve died because I feel we’re a match made in heaven.
God has given us the gift; the present isn’t enough for me.
I want to travel through the future, and smile because I’m glad you grew old with me.
You’ve been my blanket in the cold, and my soul at times I could no longer burden such emotions.
I can’t even gain control of me.
My minds eye must be blind to true reality because us together, to me feels too much like a fantasy.
When I look into your eyes I see myself, and if you look into to mine you’ll see yourself too.
I sacrifice body, soul, and mind and devote my time to know what rhythm your heart beats and try and coordinate mine to do the same, because I want us to be one.
The Essence of a relationship is not each of us giving 50% because that’s selfish.
I want to give you 100% of me, and I hope you’d do the same because I want our relationship to be 200% better than the rest.
When we kiss, I don’t want it to be because of the passion we have for one another, but because lips can do two things.
1. Lips can capture the unspeakable.
2. Lips can speak the unthinkable
So when we lay down and make love and I’m silent, kiss me because I’m thinking what you’re feeling.
Then Kiss me again because I’ve spoke consciously and told you “I Love You“
Conclusively, I fear my feelings for you are too deep, my dreams for us are too big, and the verbal expression of my feelings for you will be too late.
Should I be worried?
–Leighrick
He sent me four page letters, enclosed with “I Love You’s“, kissed compliments, and hope filled hugs so that I never feel alone.
When I thought I am too weak to stand, he is my backbone.
The sun begins to rise as my eyes begin to close.
I drift off into a land of my own; where thoughts manifest dreams, and the chase after them never seems to cease.
Though I always seem close, I am obsessed with triumph.
Unconsciously I dispute sleep.
Playing Shepard I count sheep, but wolves are recurrently embodying the bad dreams.
If I rest my heart my mind will follow?
Suggesting it’ll beat me to death before the scars and flaws are perfected.
Nevertheless
He is medicine.
Every dose of him releases dopamine, and love regenerates my body.
I’d say….
he’s the better half of me.
Better yet —
If he is a cube, I am the squares, that combined with the depth and passion makes us whole.
Likewise — He fills all the holes.
Together attaining goals.
Aspiring and Inspiring.
He is the key I thought I threw away, and cannot be duplicated.
His heart is gold; though our love invaluable…
He is King to me.
I his Queen.
His lap, my throne.
Reading these letters and holding on to his lips for everlasting kisses.
In his smile, in his eyes, in his words, in his touch,
Whenever I feel unknowingly felt lost…
I find home in his love.
He gave me that key.
Alas — no more running through homelessness.
No more love-seats, no more couches…
At the moment, while I sleep
His chest is my mattress, and he whispers spirited harmonies
ensuring that my dreams are sweet.
So as my environment seems real, my real is a fantasy.
We met on the shores of the beach, a special place.
With notebooks consumed with these letters narrating our story.
To be continued….
With Love,
–Leighrick
This is Real.
The hurt in my chest,
the plugged ears,
the consistency of tears.
My cries for some understanding.
—
Unanswered.
Deceit has sent me overboard.
Like a coward my arms could no longer bare the burden of my heart, my mind, and his words.
Regrettably —
I have no life vest.
I fell off and into what I thought was a puddle;
Except the more agony I felt, the more the water swallowed my body.
The most meaningful attribute to life, tasteful but bittersweet.
Every time a thought of you crosses, mini movies of recollections replay,
and the pain in my heart is replenished.
Lost in a sea of crocodile tears, swollen eyes, a gorged nose, and a heartbroken by life.
Actualize a racing mind.
Time is drowning me in my own emo-ocean.
Much time is given, yet I feel like sailing out my mind.
Envision
Fishing with the thoughts of regrets, and Paragliding with reminiscence.
Through a Cold War, actions often kill, but
Love is stronger than death.
Despite love being uncontrollable, no matter how hard death tries it cannot intervene people in love.
Love is stronger than death, although it can’t stop death from happening, no matter how hard death tries it can’t separate people from love.
Therefore,
Death cannot take away memories either.
In the end, love is always stronger.
So you see —
A part of you has grown in me.
Allowing me to cease the worries, raise up, and stand strong
It’s you and me together like time and eternity
and never afar,
maybe in distance,
but never by heart.
Goodnight I say,
Never a Goodbye.
–Leighrick
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