I’m too lonely to be sad.
I’m too happy to be alone.
I’m too comfortable being mad.
The angry is prolonging the need to Be.
-Leighrick
Tag: Loneliness
Abundance
Why isn’t being yourself enough for some people?
Even if I could read your mind, what kind of story would you write?
How can we make it right?
Time after time
We’re expiring, wasting moments admiring who I couldn’t be.
I had to stay true to me.
Facing the mirror— a juxtaposition to age won’t crack under the pressure.
A diamond in the hay riddled with needles.
Needless to say,
it’s a safe.
Today
I proclaim my transformation.
Optimistic in my Prime:
Illuminating
Vibrating
Breathing
Healing
Praying
Protecting
Guiding
Shedding
Why is being yourself too much for people?
Vacuums in the space
A swirl of emotion displaced in a Milk Way of consciousness.
I’m black like the cosmos.
The stars look like dragon scales, and the breeze is subtle like hummingbirds.
We are the fruit – knowledge is the nectar.
Why do we have to bury seeds in darkness so they can cherish the sun?
Life without it ain’t nuthin, don’t quit your day job if you won’t give up frontin’.
We live to stunt. We hype the stunts, and
Stunt the runts thirsty for the love.
You the plug.
You the one.
Nourish the mind, body, soul, spirit open to the divine energy;
peacefully surrendering your ego.
Your heart will grow roots, as it attaches itself to your body.
Don’t be sorry, but don’t be surprised.
When we’re ascending there is no baggage rule for the flight.
Sit tight. Stay grounded. Let your soul levitate.
Faith is nonnegotiable.
Being anti-social doesn’t solve loneliness. Keep roaming.
Even without presence your realness can never be denied.
Stay tight. Stay light.
Keep up the,
Love.
-Leighrick
This Must Be Hail…
I’m feeling a bit under the weather.
Drank half of my fifth, while
The night sky is quilted by stars,
I’m drifting with the liquids,like
A message in a bottle.
Which contains a map,
In its contents, a couple of letters
That lead me straight to you.
X marks the spot, but
We believe our future will last,
Beyond our imaginations.
I dream to love you in so many different languages, looking in hopeless places.
I’ve had you and lost you,
All within the same time.
I wished I would’ve looked over my shoulder,
Instead of trying to hide my tears.
I try not to act scared,but
All while acting fearless,I’m feeding the fear.
These are no longer sirens,these are battle cries.
Scared of that being the last I’d get to hold you,
In this war of the worlds,
I now walk these streets alone…remembering–
How you were once here. We shared the same air.
The same breathes you took away – this city
Captured in your spirit,and now you’re everywhere but here.
I said I feel a little under the weather,
This must be hail.
Ooooo but heaven is only some miles away,
I see it in your stares.
You smile and it give me life, maybe twice…
If this was according to my plan.
I don’t want to hurt you, but know the scars are still there.
Tender.
We all have flaws,we see the ones we choose to.
Become infatuated with the imperfections we are use to.
In flight,on a search for your reassurance
I’ve arrived at the beach, found our laughs buried in the sand.
Your touch pressed in the waves on my skin,
Revitalizing.
It’s hard to be with you, without you.
I would rather be alone together.
-Leighrick
Curiosity Misery’s Company (09-11-09)
My misery’s curiosity still lies behind these walls.
The yelling and the screaming continues to echo throughout the hallways.
That’s all I’m able to hear.
I don’t think I need glasses anymore, because now I can see straight through people.
Time must be moving quickly, because I feel my hair graying,
My heart aches from the stitches, that aren’t even really mending it back together, there only for show.
My souls still searching for the answers, and the souls of the rest of the lost ones.
They took a piece of me, He snatched the peace from around my neck.
I can only guess my audience is aware of the dramatic irony.
Damn, its been 10 months, and I still cant understand.
The dust has been settled, it has been swept under the rug, but even still this hasn’t become clean to me.
The feelings still linger this just isn’t the place for me to be,
a house is not a home, but I’m just trynna figure out where I’m supposed to be.
Double standards, insecurities, lies, and religion – eventually will become the death of me.
Why did she stop Goliaths hand, what would J–, never mind.
What would you have done in my situation?
He PUSHED and I prayed and still nothing happened.
Kisses on my forehead could never erase this memory.
I’m just glad to know that I got some people here for me.
I thought it was snowing in hell, when I saw who caused my cell phone to ring.
And now I’m sitting here staring at the ceiling.
I am Lonely.
I’m confined to this room, I don’t want to step outside because I feel them watching me.
Cant close my eyes because my brain projects the incident repeatedly upon my eye lids.
I can’t sleep…
My stomachs in pain — I can’t eat...
I won’t drink.
I cant think — without hurting & dropping tears left and right.
After this, I don’t think I have any fears, I only live everyday knowing ..
Fact: People aren’t obligated to you love you.
-The End.
–Leighrick
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