I’m falling back but I don’t feel anyone behind me. Im trying break my fall but I’m breaking every other bone in the process.
My mind is trying to process these thoughts, separate the good from the bad.
Trying to decipher the tears from the smiles. And the confusion from the laughter.
the Sweetness out my Satisfaction.
the Dreams out of my Sleep.
Its safe to say…
I’m lost. I’m misunderstood.
I don’t know what to do
for myself, but
I continuously do for others.
I know what I want.
I yearn for what I need.
I am thankful for what I have…maybe I am selfish,
because…THAT’S STILL NOT ENOUGH.
I wish people could just read my mind.
The good and the bad thoughts.
I wish people could just see what I see.
The potential and the fuck ups.
I just want to find me.
I am surround with people that adore me.
I haven’t found me and accepted myself for what I see, acknowledging what I want to be,
Go to sleep.
GET THE FUCK OVER IT…..
because its KILLING ME.