“Who goes there?”
I ask, “Marvin who?“, and then the knocking stops…
I ask, “Is this the same Marvin, who spent his days locked up in that room where everything happened?”
He’s calling me:
Intoxicated with Regret and High off Pride?
Dressed head to toe in the suit of persuasion with selfish fragrance.
A man sick, because of his cold heart.
A man who lacks guidance, empty, because he lacks soul..
The one who intrudes up my phone, begging and pleading me?
Disrespecting, the man I maybe with, someone I had hoped for him to be.
Now longing to be reacquainted, because I shortened our relationship and ceased all communication.
The one who blinded me?
The reason I am no longer able to look into his eyes, and realize potential.
I only see who you are now.
The true intentions in the eyes of this individual.
I am peeping through this peephole, with the eyes of the people.
Everyone who claims to have known “Love“, heard the bells ringing,
they saw the white fences, gowns, and pictured bands around their fingers.
Until they heard the church bells, and instead knocking on the door, God knocked the walls down.
Reminding you, that you can answer the call and respond to his messages,
but keep in mind he has the wrong message in the texts he’s sent —
You know you accidentally ignore the call, knowing he’s to prideful to apologize,
but the silence of his emotions will leave that voicemail.
And it continues…
[Marvin’s at the door yelling]
Fuck that new dude that you love so bad!”
[I’m yelling back]
Fuck you too, for not realizing what you had!“
“I know you still think about the times we had!”
[I open the door]
Exactly baby that’s the point, had as in the past.
You are now just a memory…
I’ve put you behind the glass, reminding myself to cherish the experience, but never relive the misery.
I’ve relieved myself of thoughts that you could ever change & will never be honest with yourself nor I.
[Slams the door]
“Now go back to those females, that play your game.“
“Who is it?”
[Marvin]: “I’m just saying you could do better — tell me have you heard that lately?“
[Me]: To answer your question, yes people have BEEN telling, I can do better…
And I know you’ve been hearing that from other females regularly.
You fell into it.
I haven’t tried —
I’m not able end something I once put my all in, and move onto something new, rejuvenated.
And although I haven’t decided to do better,
the door of opportunity is locked.
So now you can sit and continue your addiction of looking at random broads naked pictures, and talking about how you almost had me fooled.
But I’m glad you came knocking on my door; I finally peeped my head through the hole you were digging me.
Otherwise I would never be able to climb out and brush the dirt from those feelings off my chest,
And the saying: “The grass is greener on the other side“….
Might mean a lot more to you.
You can keep my heart and that tag around your neck as a memorandum of the things you’ve sacrificed for less.
With that said,
Let us have a toast for the Marvins,
and I say
GoodBYE to the Marvins.